Jemimah Rodrigues had a tough begin to the yr when a string of low scores noticed selectors look previous her for the Women’s ODI World Cup in New Zealand.
“Cricket is something I love, and playing the World Cup is a dream, and I couldn’t do both,” the 22-year-old informed WV Raman on Wednesdays with WV, a weekly present on Sportstar.
“There were days, especially this past year, when I was dropped from the team, where I don’t think I would have made it if not for my family,” she added.
“I was dropped from the ODI World Cup. I was going through a very bad phase mentally. Raman sir, you know me, you know how much I love cricket and how much it affects me. I was not Jem at home, and they knew it. I was trying to fake it for them. I was trying to be happy like all’s good; everything’s happy and good on the outside. But on the inside, I was hurting. I couldn’t sleep well at home for weeks. I would get these dreadful dreams and wake up suddenly in the middle of the night. The first five seconds would be fine. But suddenly, these thoughts come to your head. Is it the end of the world for me? These were real thoughts. Now I can brush them aside, but back then, they were very real,” Jemimah stated.
“At one point, I took my parents into confidence. We sat down, and I broke down and told dad that I need to take a break from cricket. My dad started crying. My dad never cries, and he said, “For me to go through something, it’s fine. But to see my own daughter go through something is 10,000 times worse.” My mother additionally broke down, as she stated it was so exhausting for her to be sturdy for the 2 individuals she loves probably the most. That’s when the therapeutic started for me. I took a break then. Just hung out with the household, known as cousins house. Being round household helped me cope with the disappointment. My household is essential to me, and a serious a part of my life is my household. Those who know me know this about me. I wouldn’t be the place I’m with out them,” Jemimah added.
“After I got back to a normal headspace, I planned out how I was going to go about my days and weeks. At that point, I knew the domestic season was going to start in two months. I jotted down things I had to work on. I played matches at Azad maidan with the U19 and U23 boys. That gave me a lot of confidence. Then coming back felt good,” she added.
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